And God said, “I AM THAT I AM.”

“These dry, brittle days – they can be kindle for burning bushes and God can come upon the dry bones and they can bud and blossom.” ~ Ann Voskamp

When I read these words, it is right in the middle of the Easter week and it’s me -just starting the book of Exodus, reading about the burning bush and holy ground, feeling the constant pulse of a thirsting heart.

I want more than this everyday conundrum.
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I feel infinitely small.

Inadequate.

I look up all those places that are making a difference in the cause that clutches my heartstrings…International Justice Mission, END IT, and more. I click on their ministry opportunities and every single one requires a college degree.
College.

I’m a twenty-five-year-old married to a hardworking carpenter. We don’t have children, but we feel exceptionally busy with local ministry work and life.

[Things like planning, shopping for and cooking nutritious meals. Researching and drafting for a book project. Church. Babysitting. Cleaning the house and keeping up the yard. Relationships. Putting in a minimum of ten hours a week for club ministry. Doing laundry. Sleeping. Taking opportunities to serve as they come – right now, that means helping to plan a 24 hour girls retreat in June.] College doesn’t fit into that picture very well. And I don’t even want to go to college.

I want to make a difference.
I want to serve.
I want to be a part of bringing justice into the world.
(And I want to do this without going to college.)

When God met with Moses and instructed Moses to free the Israelites, Moses first response was, “Who am I?”

And God said, “Certainly I will be with you.” Exodus 3:12a

It was like God was saying, “Who am I, Moses?” and He said, “I AM THAT I AM.” Moses trembled with anxiety and questioned God’s calling on his life, to free the Israelites. He didn’t have an army, he didn’t have a game plan, he didn’t have a college degree. Moses felt inadequate. Besides all of that, Moses wasn’t a speaker. However was he to entreat the ruler of Egypt? He didn’t feel like he was the man for the job.

Do you know how God responded to Moses and all his insecurities?

“Who hath made man’s mouth or who maketh the dumb, or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the Lord? Now therefore go, and I will be with thy mouth, and teach you what you shall say.” Exodus 4:11-12

Now therefore go.

I want to be kindling wood for the all-consuming fire of God. I want God to come upon the hum-drum of life, burn all of it up, and leave a bud to bloom from the smoldering ashes of the mundane.

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God called Moses in the middle of ordinary.
God uses commonplace people with insecurities to accomplish His purposes.
God breathes life into the routine.
So don’t look at what you can’t do, look at what you can.
After all, He’ll probably respond to your string of excuses and say something like, “I AM THAT I AM.”

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100% of all donations to my $500 campaign will support the work of International Justice Mission, a human rights agency that is bringing rescue and freedom to victims of slavery, sex trafficking and other forms of violence. If 185 people donate $3 a day I will meet my campaign goal of $500.  That’s pocket change, people. One Starbucks drink.

IJM investigators, lawyers and aftercare staff are on the frontlines of the fight for justice in Latin America, Africa and Asia. In 2011 alone, IJM partnered with local authorities to rescue more than 1,600 children, women and men from sex trafficking, forced labor slavery and other violent oppression, and helped put more than 100 slave-owners, traffickers and rapists behind bars.

Please watch this movie & consider giving for the sake of the least of these.  Remember, outside of the grace of God this could be you or your child.

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6 thoughts on “And God said, “I AM THAT I AM.”

  1. This speaks to me!! Here I am, Renee, voicing my humble opinion. 🙂 I totally agree with what you wrote. We in ourselves are nothing. It doesn’t matter how many degrees we may or may not have… because it is through God’s power alone that we can accomplish anything! And I for one have never regretted not going to college… and going in debt. 😉 God has allowed me to fulfill all of my life’s dreams without college so I am very happy. 🙂 Thanks for sharing your wisdom! I always enjoy your blog posts!

  2. Tonia! You did it! Woo-hoo! 🙂

    I loved talking with you on Saturday. You are so alive and so full of love for everyone. Your life blesses me; God is alive in YOU!

    (Oh yeah, and I am also really glad that I don’t have the college debt too. 😉

  3. this was so encouraging for me..Seems quite often when i feel “called” to something specific i feel completely inadequate. I have my mental list of excuses. Thanks for pushing me to realize the strength beyond myself. God doesnt have a specification list that we have to meet before He can show His power..Thank heavens! 🙂

  4. Wonderful to hear (again) that God uses the ordinary and mundane. I want to do everything–the degree AND make a difference. But when nothing seems to be happening, I see that God is saving me from myself and it’s actually a mercy that I don’t get what I want.
    I found your blog through Shari, I think. Lovely!

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